NY mafia looking at the words that litter that long post up above, the word I would use and I think many others would use to use describe you is indoctrinated.

Look, I read the books and watch the movies like everyone else but that's as far as it goes.

These people would murder me in a second if it suited their needs or wants. They'd kill anyone. I'm sure not looking for any "silver lining" when one of these career criminal scumbag pieces of shit goes down hard.

These people are parasites. If their crimes were limited to fucking up deadbeats who owe a bookie or loanshark that would be one thing but that's not where it ends and you know it. There's an old saying, how do you cure a horse thief? You hang them.