Everyone we're putting on ventilators are dying. Not one patient extubated yet. I've said fuck it, just send me to the covid unit every shift. Eventually, I'll get it and get two weeks off of work. Before we intubated the last guy, the docs told him there is a slim chance you'll survive but if we don't try, you will die in a matter of hours. He gets on the phone and calls his wife and tells her how much he loves her. Now the ventilator is breathing for him. This is so Fucked up. The ones that die are dying alone. No family members or visitors period. If I wasn't a healthy person and started getting the symptoms, I'd say fuck it and die in my bed by my own means.