I've been down this same road my friend...

Started out as a teenager, gambling on sports and going to racetracks...

Worst possible thing that can happen is that you win, then you're hooked...

Then as the years progress you start betting bigger and losing bigger, its almost like you actually don't care if you win or lose anymore because you're never ahead.. its the action that you like most, and that's when you're a full blown degenerate gambler...

I've thrown away tens of thousands over the years and I'm now 50 years old...All I can say is stop today my friend...I wish I could do it all over again...Cut your losses today !!