strocos, do you mind if I ask what happened to you? You must have dealt with a traumatizing experience that involved black people. I mean it must have been awful, clearly something that you just can't laugh about years later. I got jumped by 3 black guys in high school, and I can laugh about it now. Why? Because I made a lot of black friends, too. Many that I still have. In fact, one of them stepped in for me when the guys that jumped me had confronted me a couple of days beforehand. The point is, I can laugh about this now. Whatever happened to you, it must be worse than getting jumped. Maybe you were mugged for a lot of money. I'm not sure what that feels like. Luckily I've never been robbed. But I've been assaulted. I had a pain in my jaw when I yawned that lasted for weeks. I missed school for a week because my face was mangled. It was horrible at the time but I got over it. It's part of growing up. I can't imagine what could have happened to you to make you harbor this anger for a lifetime. I'm guessing it might have been something that happened to you in jail...