I hope your getting better and I am very happy your father is doing well.

I don't like talking about death and illness. With me I hate that I had a few instances of illness it just made me feel helpless. I don't like felling not in control.

When I am in the hospital I don't want anyone to come and visit me. Not my wife not my kids no one. When a doctor tells me I did not have to be on IV any more and can move to regular medicine. I leave that minute. I left 3 o'clock in the morning. Nurse would tell me I can't leave I have to wait in the morning I tell them fuck you I am leaving now.

It was winter time I only had a pair of shorts I pulled the IV out and a catheter out and left.
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Another time I got shot my doctor wanted me to do recovery work. I told him I would do it as an out patient. He told me to forget that. I had to reason with him before he would let me leave.

I hate hospitals one time a one time friend came to visit me a soccer coach. I never told him not to come because I never thought he would visit me. After 3 minutes I told him thank you goodbye.