Life ain't about being important my friend specially in the lifestyle you seem to have an interest in. Being important only means your the next guy to get indicted or killed. Sorry if I offended you I'm just finished with all the textbook terminology. Don't be so confrontational. But anytime you wanna compare resumes feel free I ain't got no secrets.

"He who never was can never be, He who was has always been and will always be." Sun Tzu

You can read about it, watch movies and TV documentaries, but chances are unless you lived it you will not truly understand.