Lavinia, So Sorry for your loss. My mother died 29 years ago and I know what you mean asking why. Why did she have to die when I was just a young teenager just when I needed her the most. Then I realized she is no longer suffering from all the pain and she was with God cooking for him in the big kitchen in the sky. What I wouldn't do to eat her cabbage rolls I miss her so much but I dream about her and that is comforting.