Of course i understand,don't worry about it.It's a touchy topic to begin with.We all know what you mean,my mother is italian so i know what you mean.Try to understand my point of view,it dosen't matter how you were raised or what you ocupation is,or eve if you are a gangster or not,when it hits you it hits you like a 50 pound sledge hammer.
I'm in line with what you said we don't have continue on this thing anymore.
Back to Sonny Black,if that man really knew for sure that he was going to get killed,he's really a man's man and a tough mf in my book.