Yeah, I'm smaht!

You're right, sometimes it feels like there's no more empty space, and there's no room for new stuff. Other times it feels like it got too full and my brain did an automatic "delete" on everything, and I forget everything. Both ways, it's bad. I do have ambition, but I need to find a balance and find the right time to ease up on the discipline a little.

But anyway, I hate complaining. Big deal, it's hard, but I'm so lucky that I get to go to a good school and have this difficulty. I just remind myself of that so I can appreciate it... it doesn't always work though-- sometimes I just want to quit and live off of my trust fund, and be a bum.