So, your fear of clowns has been pretty much all your life??? To me they were not always scary, but meant to be funny. Wow, you do have a phobia. You don't remember where exactly it stemmed from? Or is it just the painted face maybe????
TIS
"Mankind must put an end to war before war puts an end to mankind. War will exist until that distant day when the conscientious objector enjoys the same reputation and prestige that the warrior does today." JFK