I thought posting here was a good habit.

Welcome back, Lavinia! It's REALLY good to "see" you.

I'm sorry about your cats... I know how you must feel and can only suggest that you remember that you gave them a good home, and that is something that many cats (unfortunately) don't get.

Congrats on the weight loss... that's 40 pounds!!! Not too shabby but I once lost 110 pounds of ugly fat - I divorced my first wife.