I have never gotten back on IM either. He was just one of a few that I talked to on IM. Since I saw him online every morning when I got into work I couldn't bear it loading up and not seeing the smiley face next to Paul's name. I don't think I'll ever get back on it again.

I'm so mushy that every song that even remotely mentioned death made me a basket case. I could barely turn my radio on for awhile.