LLC, I am almost all of what you described except for the obsessively organised part. I wish I had the courage to not care when I was your age. Not that I did anything to change the situation, but I used to feel bad about not not conforming to the mean of the social bell curve. Now I can't care less what anyone thinks about me. I won't particiate in some sport where guys twice my size compete for establishing their alpha-male status. It is just pointless. I used to follow sports just to be able to talk in a group. Now I declare right up front that I don't know or care about it.