Yadayadayada.
I am too strong for alcohol; even when it is in me I contain the most intensified self-awareness. I knew what I was doing.
When I drink alcohol, and I'm tipsy-drunk (but not really dead-drunk), I also know what I'm doing. However, I sometimes act differently, and do things I normally wouldn't do or dare to do. Sometimes I'm even surprised of all the things I do then.
But the beautiful thing is, I am always aware of it. I'm always present. It never happens that I do things I can't remember.
It's like a movie, in which I am the main character. Wonderful feeling. As olng as I don't do it too often.