Yadayadayada.
I am too strong for alcohol; even when it is in me I contain the most intensified self-awareness. I knew what I was doing. It was sort of like purging all the bullshit out of me that builds up after an entire semester surrounded by hangers-on, academically dull and socially inadequate people. Sort of like taking a scolding hot shower after you shake hands with your enemy.
It was a cheap cousin to colonic irrigation, but got rid of intangible shit instead of actual brown faecies. Seconds after the Great Purge of Pretentiousness, I felt newly born again.
Idiots often bring you down to their level without you knowing it; and so the only way to emerge as yourself again is to knowingly acknowledge this, take a dive into a big pool of alcohol, swim a length, and come out the other side without any of the filth attached to your body.
But I forgot, you said "physiological reasons aside". So I guess you can just forget everything I said and keep frowning.