Being a made man comes with a terrible price "your life and soul". I would love the wealth and power and the fear you put into the average working class person. I mean think of what would be running through your mind and how you would feel if you took your family to a nice italian restuarant and in came John Gotti with a bunch of his capos for dinner and sits at a table a few feet from you. I'd be a little nervous, but all that BS about honor and respect went out when all the old cronnies died (Luckey,Carlo Gambino,Vito Genovese,etc....)

"He who fights with monsters should look at it that he himself does not become a monster... when you gaze long into the abyss the abyss also gazes into you..."