Stay strong bud. As men, we should be able to "chew out" all of the pressure and horror which is constantly trying to occupy our thoughts and mind on daily basis. I know some will say "its easy for you to say", well its not because I have many friends who went through the same bloody situations and as a medical doctor, Ive also seen lots of horrific stuff. Again, I know its tough but try to stay strong and also try to ignore all of the horror. I know its a different mindset but you have to try it. Cheers